For the past 3 weeks I’ve been living in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia and today I totally hit a wall. Rather than suffer in silence I wanted to take a moment to share insights from the not so shiny side of “the big leap”. I don’t want to just share all the great things about traveling the world – I wanted you to hear this too:
Now I want to hear from you. What’s a big change/situation that you’ve recently struggled through and what did you do to feel more like yourself again?
Rebecca
My prediction is that in a year, you won’t recognize the woman who made this video. It is like the lifecycle of a butterfly. You are starting to emerge from your cocoon in a completely different form. Once all that sticky stuff dries off your wings, you are going to be spectacular!
Just the fact that you recognize and acknowledge what you are feeling right now is empowerment. See it for what it is and then let it go. And it’s totally okay to hang in your room and recharge a little. It’s also been a great time to reflect. You have made a giant life change, you don’t have to be amazing all the time, you just need to be open to possibility and opportunity, which I know you are. D and I have watched you grow to where you are today, and you continue to amaze us both! Just remember, you can take off your cape once in awhile and let out a sigh. ?
Thank you Martha! You are so right – I want all the rights and privileges of being a butterfly without the sticky stuff, lol. I’m so excited to see where (and who) I’ll be by the time we leave Peru. Thank you both for supporting me since day 1! Miss you both!
The struggle is part of the journey – you know that. The amazingness of the journey is that you are doing it in spite of the struggle. You are already you. You are an inspiration and that is what you know you were meant to be. Easy for me to say shake it off and keep it moving but you need to know that it is absolutely positively okay not to be okay. You don’t always have to be strong – your strength is that you are willing to be everything that this journey is causing you to experience. Do this for the you in you – enjoy what is there to enjoy and embrace what you need to embrace. We miss you – with all the drama going down here – we miss you. More than anything though. When you return – your struggle would have made your back bone stronger and straighter, your vision clearer, your voice more robust and your commitment to living life to its fullest solid. When you return – if you so graciously chose to do – you will walk in with your own light shining because you – Got Your Rebecca On! Miss you, love you, be strong – stay away from KFC. Have fun
, find silence when you need it and continue to grow. So very proud…….
Thank you Lacy! You’re right – it’s okay to NOT be okay. As a recovering overachiever I am always trying to have my shit figured out and together at all times and that just isn’t going to happen. And that’s perfectly fine. And yes, I’m staying my butt out of KFC! Miss you too 🙂
Hi Rebecca, thanks for sharing! I love that you are sharing your experiences. I love that you have fully leaped and are living to share the discomfort as you are discovering yourself differently. I am so inspired by you.
I love your question as it speaks to where I am now. And my immediate response to your question is, “yes, the struggle is real and yet if I tried to be my old self I would be setting myself up for more of the same knowing that where I am now and where I am headed is absolutely in line with my true purpose. My mantra for the past week as been – “I release my resistance to change” and that storm in my chest and belly is calmer.
Yes, please continue to share and know that I stand with you along with so many others.
Live Free,
desi
Ahhhhhh I love “I release my resistance to change”! It’s amazing how even when we ask for something we can STILL be resistant to it when it comes. I will be adopting this because that is exactly what’s going on right now. Thank YOU for sharing dear!
You are so awesome and inspiring Rebecca! It is absolutely so important to share your struggles in addition to your happiness it just continues to show us how truly real and genuine you are! I so appreciate your sisterhood and know that everything is UP from here for You! I look forward to continuing to read your journey! Blessings sister!
Thank you dear! I really appreciate that! It is such a disservice to those watching to paint it as roses and sunshine every day because despite how amazingly fantastic this place is it’s still the hardest thing I’ve ever done (including running for office). I am just so grateful that you all have been reading and paying attention. It means the world to me <3
I had a similar experience when we moved to Germany. No apartment, no car, no job. I had just run up thousands in debt from getting two college degrees. It was definitely a time of soul searching for me.
Walk alongside this feeling, and journal your feelings everyday. This is our brain’s way of recalibrating to adjust to a new normal.
Wow, I can only imagine what that felt like. The minute I got that new journal I immediately felt better. I just needed to a place to put all of those emotions and get them out. I’m challenging myself to write everyday because every day is so different and I want to remember every aspect of this journey years from now. Cannot wait to see where your next chapter takes you – we definitely need to chat soon!
I so appreciate your honesty and vulnerability in this post! As I’m launching my first-ever campaign for local office, I feel like a mirror is being held up to me each day, reflecting my strengths and areas in need of growth. It’s freeing and terrifying to take something on that you know will change you, even when it’s for the better.
I am so excited for you to make this leap! It will be one of the most amazing and challenging experiences of your life but you will be so much better for you. And you’re right, it’s like holding a mirror up to yourself. I am sending so much love and light your way as you start down this path. Can’t wait to see where it takes you!
Love you. Thanks for sharing. Oddly enough, I too have hit a wall and this past week has been “different ” & “interesting “. I started taking L-Theanine supplements this past saturday to help push me back to being balanced. I feel a million miles away but im still here.
My new life after …. i now have to define & explore.
Thank YOU for sharing! Sometimes when we’re struggling we think we’re alone and my MO is to isolate myself. Feels good to know that we’re all figuring it out <3.